出發點

我以前立場不堅定，老是聽別人的，別人說東就是東，說西就是西，感覺就是為人而活。我現在終於知道為什麼了。原因是我根本就不知道我的出發點為何。因此，我怎麼知道我要什麼，要去那裡呢？有了誓約後，我很賭定並為自己站出立場，甚至在必需的時候，畫清界線。出發點就是最強的 Being，而這也是在 LP147 支持我最大的原動力。

Being dominate everything...

to give

In the past, I have put too much focus on myself, but never realized the power of focusing out. Being supportive and trusting someone can be so rewarding. I do have a lot of abilities, I do have some experiences. Those are some of the muscle I already have. But I am actually quite weak when it comes to supporting. That is the muscle that I need to work on. The power of to give!

Asiaworks

June 11th, 2008 is the first day of my Asiawork training. My life started to change when several interesting conversations were happening between me and Allen. Those are the moments I will never forget because it made me become aware of my own problems. Being in the basic course, I realized how automatic people are these days, hiding all their true feeling underneath of a thick image, afraid of getting hurt again. Basic course is all about awareness, I couldn't believe that I have been so selfish, arrogant, inauthentic, and lack of confidence. Through out the course, I have also learnt that responsibility and commitment actually imply the matters that I have never thought of. It is a mind changing concept.

June 25th, 2008. In Advance course is definitely intense but yet interesting. I have came to realized that I have so much abilities but I do not know how to give. The class is a safe place where people can share secrets and be true to each other. I have never bonded with people so close just less in 5 days! Advance course is surely explosive because I was able to look inside myself and dig out that 90% of undeveloped power. Put it this way... it is the perfect stretch!

July 11st is the first day of my Leadership Program, I have so much anticipation... it will the most incredible 3 months for sure!

My first donation~

I am the king of procrastinate! This donation has been in my mind for almost a month, but today, I finally did it! I donated 200 USD to Red Cross for China Earthquake Relief. I hope the people there will get their life back to normal soon. 

背叛

雨　不停落下來　花　怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛　我一個人　欣賞悲哀

愛　只剩下無奈　我　一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白　缺了一塊　就不精采

緊緊相依的心如何 Say goodbye 你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼

把手放開不問一句 Say goodbye 當作最後一次對你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　只要你能愉快 

心　有一句感慨　我　還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看　那些片段　還在不在

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Shadowed with pain and destruction, truth unveils like an atomic bomb. eliminating any preconceived perceptions in X km in diameter. The mushroom cloud is filled with toxic deception, ready to crush every cell in the heart. Debris is in the air, melting with countless lies. Time freezes. Then I stop and ask - why?

How much protection could a deceiving mind offer? As thick as a bunker I imagine. Denying, lying, and finger pointing have become handy tools in the barricade. It is just so much easier when the problems are with someone else but you. 

Looking at the mirror. Who is the real you? Fear of losing has summoned devils ready to evict my pure soul. Countless battles have crippled my senses ready to fail at any time. Aren't we all victims of our own lives? 

How to rescue a lost soul? What gives me the courage to forgive? Truth is like a ghost haunting me down in my dreams. Oh... God, please help me to erase this cruel memory and heal my shattered heart. 

Acient Civilization

Do you believe in ancient civilization? You don't? I do...

Cica and I visited Gu Gong museum during CNY. And we found this very interesting pot which was made 5,000 years ago. Yes! 5,000 YEARS AGO! What's so fascinating about this pot? Have you noticed the symbol - 卐? If you have some knowledge about Buddhism, you would know this is the symbol which relates to it. According to history, Buddhism is created only 2,500 years ago by 釋迦牟尼 or 悉達多太子! So why would people already have knowledge about 卐 5,000 years ago? Can anyone explain this? Or simply there are ancient civilizations.