給LP147的同學 ﹣7月20號的小組會議

在這個星期中，我漸漸的懂得運用目標去主宰我的行為心態，而不是以感覺評估。在還沒上LP之前我都是把我想做的放在 to do list 裡。但我發覺在我 to do list 上的東西，有﹪70都做不完。所以我現在都把想做的清清楚楚的通通放進 schedule 裡。我給自己訂定時間，怎麼贏，然後就找出任何的可能性去做完。我深深的體會到用目標主宰行為真的很有效率，我不會再被那些情緒駕馭。而且每完成一件事，心裡都有大小不等的成就感。心中就有一個字可以形容 ﹣ 爽！若要如何，全憑自己。我會有更多更多的行動。

在這一個星期中，我最大的 break down 是跟媽媽之間的關係。而這次的 break down 是在沒有承諾創造任何事物下進行的交談，我加入了很多自己的主觀意識，媽媽對於生活的出發點我只有接收並沒有接受。倒至我們到最後吵架。我發覺行不通的是當我用我的感覺去主宰我的心態的時候，結果是完全不能預測的。我花了20分鐘馬上的跟自己做了一個Debreif，當下就跟媽媽為自己的主觀倒歉。雖然跟媽媽吵了架，但是我並不灰心，因為我知道了不可行的是什麼。同時我也為了自己的出發點站出了立場。

昨天跟我老婆還有 LP166 的同學去了一家老人院去做 service，那裡的老人都 80 多 90，有些甚至聽不到了。我們帶了一些東西給他們吃，在那裡陪他們聊天還有唱廣東大戲給他們聽。十多個老人在我們一個小時中，非常的快樂。有個老人跟我說，“香港就是要多一些像我們這樣的人。“對於做 service 這塊，我很清楚我的出發點，那就是愛。對於愛，我是不求回報的，老人跟我說的這句話，讓人聽起來會覺得很爽，感覺好像自己做到了什麼。但是我覺得這句話真正對我的啟發是要真正的引發更多的人去關懷這個社會。記得上完高級之後跟姨丈聊天，他對於佛很有見解。而在佛家的認識中，不求回報的愛，就是慈悲。無論是慈悲也好，愛也好，只要能夠讓社會和平有愛，不就是 LP147 所承諾創造的嗎？這次的小組會議雖然來不了，但我會在香港堅持，努力！為LP147 的理想世界加油。

出發點

我以前立場不堅定，老是聽別人的，別人說東就是東，說西就是西，感覺就是為人而活。我現在終於知道為什麼了。原因是我根本就不知道我的出發點為何。因此，我怎麼知道我要什麼，要去那裡呢？有了誓約後，我很賭定並為自己站出立場，甚至在必需的時候，畫清界線。出發點就是最強的 Being，而這也是在 LP147 支持我最大的原動力。

Being dominate everything...

to give

In the past, I have put too much focus on myself, but never realized the power of focusing out. Being supportive and trusting someone can be so rewarding. I do have a lot of abilities, I do have some experiences. Those are some of the muscle I already have. But I am actually quite weak when it comes to supporting. That is the muscle that I need to work on. The power of to give!

Asiaworks

June 11th, 2008 is the first day of my Asiawork training. My life started to change when several interesting conversations were happening between me and Allen. Those are the moments I will never forget because it made me become aware of my own problems. Being in the basic course, I realized how automatic people are these days, hiding all their true feeling underneath of a thick image, afraid of getting hurt again. Basic course is all about awareness, I couldn't believe that I have been so selfish, arrogant, inauthentic, and lack of confidence. Through out the course, I have also learnt that responsibility and commitment actually imply the matters that I have never thought of. It is a mind changing concept.

June 25th, 2008. In Advance course is definitely intense but yet interesting. I have came to realized that I have so much abilities but I do not know how to give. The class is a safe place where people can share secrets and be true to each other. I have never bonded with people so close just less in 5 days! Advance course is surely explosive because I was able to look inside myself and dig out that 90% of undeveloped power. Put it this way... it is the perfect stretch!

July 11st is the first day of my Leadership Program, I have so much anticipation... it will the most incredible 3 months for sure!